So many of the problems I have seem to be linked to me being “serious”, neglecting my inner child.
I feel that it’s true at some level.
This art thing can’t be “art” for me.
It is a career and it isn’t. It’s just something I like doing and always have, especially when I was a kid.
When I was a kid I would draw all day sometimes, literally not leaving my room. Drawing and messing around playing music.
The cool thing about drawing and painting for me, is that it never got serious. It was always a thing I just did, naturally, for fun. Music was the thing that I took “seriously” early on. And I guess it shows in my work as a musician.
Now it’s time to do something purely for fun and just let it all happen. I’m seeing my pictures naturally move in this direction of freedom, abandon, and fun.
As I reflect on this reality for myself, I can’t help but think of all of the adults (and children) that are lost in a fog of seriousness, neglecting their inner child; neglecting the magic in life. Wishing they were dead.
I have to work to be happy to be alive, I have to focus on the beauty in life, the magic.
Painting is allowing me to do that and I can’t stop.
Upper back pain has been holding me back recently, but I think that might be a good thing. First off, all of our experience as humans is completely absurd. Being the eye of the absolute, so to speak, has its amazing transcendent, pleasurable sensations and its downright horrible, painful sensations and they are not “felt” …
The back pain continues to get worse, but the limitation is breeding more contentment in my life (no reason necessary). I find my work making a transition since moving to our 2nd house in Merida. I am constantly looking at water and stone, both alive and changing in their own ways. There’s a feeling that …
I have this contemplative element or phase and I have an action oriented element or phase to my work right now. It’s invigorating because it allows two distinct aspects of my self to emerge and express themselves in the pictures. The contemplative phase is first. It consists of meticulous color selection (even going out to …
Went wild with oil pastels today. It felt so good. I love oil pastels because they make me feel like a kid again. Just creating shapes, coloring things in. I try to close my eyes when I’m drawing like this. I finished a 2 meter tall painting and took some big strides on 3 100cm …
3.15.2024
I guess I had a bit of a revelation today.
So many of the problems I have seem to be linked to me being “serious”, neglecting my inner child.
I feel that it’s true at some level.
This art thing can’t be “art” for me.
It is a career and it isn’t. It’s just something I like doing and always have, especially when I was a kid.
When I was a kid I would draw all day sometimes, literally not leaving my room. Drawing and messing around playing music.
The cool thing about drawing and painting for me, is that it never got serious. It was always a thing I just did, naturally, for fun. Music was the thing that I took “seriously” early on. And I guess it shows in my work as a musician.
Now it’s time to do something purely for fun and just let it all happen. I’m seeing my pictures naturally move in this direction of freedom, abandon, and fun.
As I reflect on this reality for myself, I can’t help but think of all of the adults (and children) that are lost in a fog of seriousness, neglecting their inner child; neglecting the magic in life. Wishing they were dead.
I have to work to be happy to be alive, I have to focus on the beauty in life, the magic.
Painting is allowing me to do that and I can’t stop.
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