Upper back pain has been holding me back recently, but I think that might be a good thing.
First off, all of our experience as humans is completely absurd.
Being the eye of the absolute, so to speak, has its amazing transcendent, pleasurable sensations and its downright horrible, painful sensations and they are not “felt” as we usually speak of them, but they ARE us. I mean to say our being is a series of sensations from our sensations in the present NOW.
So of course, this is absurd. It doesn’t connect with anything rational – it just IS. It just is what it IS.
Pain is necessary to slow me down. Take me out of my workaholic regimen and begin to stop and reflect. I’m reading a lot of Zen literature and that always helps to give context, not only to my work but to my life.
Physical therapy, stretching, Kundalini Yoga, TCM – these are all helping, but the limits remain and for good reason. I’m doing these things, not to stop the pain, but to keep my body moving. To keep moving, but not for work, for life.
I intend to start skateboarding again no matter what happens and just find a path to dealing with pain, accepting it and continuing to move my body. Painting also adds to this and is so beneficial in moving the body around.
Moving to a new house… Possibly opening a gallery in Merida (TBA)… Planning a solo show… Working on a new electronic album… All in due time.