I guess I had a bit of a revelation today.
So many of the problems I have seem to be linked to me being “serious”, neglecting my inner child.
I feel that it’s true at some level.
This art thing can’t be “art” for me.
It is a career and it isn’t. It’s just something I like doing and always have, especially when I was a kid.
When I was a kid I would draw all day sometimes, literally not leaving my room. Drawing and messing around playing music.
The cool thing about drawing and painting for me, is that it never got serious. It was always a thing I just did, naturally, for fun. Music was the thing that I took “seriously” early on. And I guess it shows in my work as a musician.
Now it’s time to do something purely for fun and just let it all happen. I’m seeing my pictures naturally move in this direction of freedom, abandon, and fun.
As I reflect on this reality for myself, I can’t help but think of all of the adults (and children) that are lost in a fog of seriousness, neglecting their inner child; neglecting the magic in life. Wishing they were dead.
I have to work to be happy to be alive, I have to focus on the beauty in life, the magic.
Painting is allowing me to do that and I can’t stop.